Today, I feel… I’ve no idea how I feel to be honest. I can’t find a word. I guess I feel okay, listening to Primal Scream Screamadelica and tidying my room. I feel like I can’t be bothered to do much today. So I guess I feel lethargic. I can’t be bothered to wash my hair or apply for grad schemes or study or read, all I want to do is chain smoke and drink green tea with my best friend.
I’m looking forward to November being over so that I can make my graph documenting my mood over the month with the aid of these journal posts. I can’t wait to physically see the ups and downs of my bipolar life, and to show my CPN and psychiatrist. Sometimes it’s helpful to have a visual aid rather than just orally describing my rapid cycling. I will post the graph on here when it’s done :)