Checked into Heartbreak Hotel at around 6 am this morning.
It’s a really nasty place, the establishment is run by the partnership Pain & Misery (& Co.) There are lots of rules here. Lots of stuff isn’t allowed. Some examples:
Can’t write poetry
Can’t write essays
Can’t read books
Can’t read articles or journals
Can’t read magazines or newspapers
Can’t read poetry
But I’m allowed to do some stuff, such as:
Throw up at thought of him/her having sex with/loving someone else
Wallow in self pity
Beat oneself up
Cry some more
Text him/her getting everything you want to say off your chest
Make promises to self r.e. mistakes not being repeated, moving on to bigger and better things, finding suitable replacement man/woman asap
Send message officially saying goodbye to him/her
Dwell on things you cannot change
Cry over happy memories
Cry over sad memories
Block/delete off Facebook
Block/delete phone number
Make friends force-feed you tuna pasta
Watch back to back episodes of Sex And The City (1998 series)
Play terrible pranks on parents b/c of April Fools’ Day and laugh hysterically
Cry until your eyes are swollen shut
Ignore physical pain in heart
Beat yourself up again
Ponder all the things you would change/do differently if you had a second chance/could turn back time
Cry and cry and cry it all out.
I’ve had enough of this place. Been here for not even 24 hours and I just want to leave already. I’m gonna check out tomorrow morning when I wake up.
Depression is home, Happiness is just a place I visit once in a blue moon.