About

20-something
writer/artist/editor/graduate
North London born and raised and yet to escape
total fucking angel” or “ten types of trouble” (depending on who you ask)
perpetually on the verge of a breakdown or a breakthrough, usually both.

I do not write for you,
I write because I have to.

contact@themagicblackbook.comfoh1


TRIGGER WARNING
This site features upsetting subjects, including suicide, self-harm and addiction.
Please approach my work with caution, sensitivity and an open mind.


I am not these things, but I suffer from these things:
EUPD-borderline personality disorder + bipolar disorder + psychotic episodes + chronic suicidality + paranoia + generalised anxiety disorder + panic disorder + alcoholism + pseudodementia + self-injury + substance abuse + chronic tremors.

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All written work on this blog is my own unless otherwise cited.
I do NOT own the rights to any images, artwork or photography featured on my blog unless I have stated otherwise. I aim to include sources where possible; however, if I have used your work without appropriate credit or permission, please do contact me to rectify this.

29 thoughts on “About

  1. Are you interested in writing a short films?
    I am currently looking for scripts to producer and direct – your writing and style could be just the thing – I was impressed that you had Patick Hamilton works as an influence.
    (I have produced a number of shorts this year, but hoping to make some more challanging work!)
    Email me if you are interested: godivafilms@yahoo.co.uk

  2. Hi Helena–

    I read you work in The Gravity of the Thing (where some prose-shorts of mine also appear) and followed your trail here. Can I spot a kindred soul or what? Or can you? Unlike others, it would seem, I’ve never before interacted with a blog, but now I actually feel motivated. I am just happy to see someone out there fusing brains and passion. Honesty yes but only as art is honest but not actually homely. I appreciate your working with language as a way of understanding life, not as mere reportage. I understand what you mean when you say you write because you have to. Same with me, heaven help us all. Anyway, good luck. See you in the funny papers.

    Kurt Cline

  3. Hello! How are you?

    Well, It seems like you and I share a lot in common with these people:

    Burroughs, Cassady, Ginsberg, Ferlinghetti, Friedrich Nietzsche.

    I’ve read those your About me blog and I am hooked. :)

    Your forthcoming and honest and I respect that very much.

    I’m looking forward to reading your work. You should stop by and read my poetry. It’s very Burroughian style and very experimental.

    P.S Hope to hear from you soon.

    ~Charlie Zero the Poet

  4. Helena your blog has become something magical and special – incredibly happy for you – see you atop the Premier league Table my Darling.

  5. I can’t remember how I found your blog or if we have exchanged comments before, but some of your recent posts came up in my feed-reader today and I really enjoyed them. I, too, have bipolar (type II) disorder. Anyways, nice to make your acquaintance and I look forward to reading more of your work here. :)

    Kait

  6. Hi, thank you for following my blog. I have read a few of your posts and think you have a real talent. Keep up the great work (In a non-patronising way!) and I look forward to reading your future posts :-)

  7. In all the blogs I’ve seen and read this is my absolute favorite. You are lively, vibrant, intense and display such honesty in your writing. I love every word. I am hooked.
    Love,

    Erika

  8. Out of your darkness comes light, this pain, this hurt can breed beautiful things, unknowingly you inspire with your words.

  9. Reading your post brought to mind the following – From George Eliot:

    “To be a poet is to have a soul so quick to discern, that no shade of quality escapes it, and so quick to feel, that discernment is but a hand playing with finely-ordered variety on the chords of emotion–a soul in which knowledge passes instantaneously into feeling, and feeling flashes back as a new organ of knowledge.”
    ― George Eliot, Middlemarch

    And I agree that it can be very therapeutic for one’s mental health…

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